I breathed in and blew out, but it did not go away with the column I saw now flowing in the air in front of me.
My hands were shaking, I got up and walked around.
I sat down again, breathed in another time and held in for longer seconds. I noticed my heart beating fast, I blew out.
It was still there somewhere. Could be either in my head or my heart, or perhaps it was not anywhere at all. I just imagined it up from the solitude I was facing at the moment, perhaps.
Yet I tried another and another times to blow it out, but I still felt it there.
My hands were shaking more strongly, my heart was beating much faster. I almost went off the lines here on this page.
For God’s sake, stop it!
God, please have mercy on me…
‘Where is the tablet?‘ S**t, I forgot it at home!
I am so scared of my state of mind now.
Suggested soundtrack: Englabörn (Víkingur Ólafsson Piano Version) – Jóhann Jóhannsson & Vikingur Olafsson